Today certainly had all the makings of an empowering day, at any rate. It has great possibility. We’ll see as I go through and write up about it if I feel that it’s more or less true. Before I dive into the Women in Tech conference that ate up my day today, I will talk about something that was definitely empowering.
We carpooled with members of Windward’s marketing team to the event (which was in Denver), and all left from Flatirons Mall. So of course when we got back we’re dropped off at a huge mall. HM! It turns out I was itching to shop a bit. Which is odd for me. More on that later. Point being, it ended up that if I was shopping, I was shopping alone. So since my main goal was shoes I thought I’d just do that and then beeline home. And then I noticed a sale at a store, and the cogs turned, and I realized, “HEY! Why can’t you go shopping by yourself? Why would that be so bad, huh?” As a result I went shopping for at least 1-1.5 hours. By myself. Made decisions. Bought things. Won’t bore you with the details. It isn’t the specific action that really matters at any rate. What really matters here was me once again realizing WOAH I CAN DO THINGS BY MYSELF AND IT ISN’T AWFUL. I have such an aversion to doing things on my own. I like to bring people with me. But it turns out it’s really not a bad thing at all. And every time I do something like that I end up feeling happy.
And now because I’m feeling so motivated and the apartment will be lonely this weekend, I’m going to go try out a gym, also by myself. Because I feel like I’m going to die being so pent up. >_> Argh. And also exercise is fun and helps me sleep and…yeah. It’ll be good. EXERCISE. (Maybe exercising the night before a hike is a dumb idea…wat no that’s a silly thought…PAIN IS GOOD.)
That thing I said earlier about how I normally don’t like shopping. Coming back to that. I don’t know who I am anymore, I’m pretty sure. I used to hate shopping. Now I like shopping, I like wearing dresses, I like coordinating my outfits SO HARD, painting my nails…when did this happen. I was so geeky and gave zero cares about this in high school. I mean, I’m still pretty geeky/dorky/whatever you wanna call it, but I’ve also got a methodology for accessorizing and that sort of thing. It’s…weird. @_@ I also have this problem with my personality lately. I have always identified as quiet and extremely introverted, and over the course of last semester I suddenly realized I’m not nearly as quiet as I used to be, and think of myself, at any rate. This is both freeing and terrifying. Freeing because, woah, I’m not quiet, I can like…talk to people and stuff. But terrifying because I feel like I don’t quite know who I am…and that’s…really weird…and do I need to know who I am? I think yes. But letting go of the quiet tag is like letting go of a part of myself…or it feels that way right now…it’s very odd…
And I’m going to break the serious mood now. I got a lot of swag from the Women in Technology conference. Where a lot is less than from the career fair at Mudd, but still. I don’t know why I said a lot, actually. I got swag. Overall impressions: the speakers were pretty cool. The event was very cool on principle. My only complaint is that women in tech seemed to mostly mean not programmers/software developers, which left me feeling rather out of place with all the business-y and market-y lingo floating around and being rather bad at networking as a result. Which was unfortunate.
At some point I will discuss the speakers and what they said in more detail, or at least the parts that struck me. That will be a long discussion though, and I decided to watch part of the Hunger Games and paint my nails instead, and there are often times I want to blog but don’t have much to say, so I can put them in there. Turns out I’m a sucker for introspection so I’ll appreciate having those…prompts, if you will, later.
This is the part where I continue to not have pictures. Face palm. Maybe from the hike Sunday. Wub wub.
On a side note, I tend to have way too much free time on the weekends, so people should hit me up for chats or whatnot. I miss people I’m not seeing on a semi-regular basis D:
Oh yeah, so the empowering day bit. I think most of my thoughts about that was just because of my own doing, not so much the conference, although that was useful and thought provoking for other reasons, as I’ll explain in a later entry.
Bye for now. : )